Right now, I'm crying, and I can't get to sleep, and I can't help but envy people who can cry themselves to sleep, but even though I'm dead tired, and bawling, and I can't get to sleep. So, I am going to try and vent.
About two months ago, I was living with my mate, and then, I decided I wanted to move back in with my dad, because I couldn't keep trying to fork out money I literally didn't have for things like food. So, I told him that I wanted to move back in with my dad, and he hit me. The punch itself didn't really do anything, but I hit the wall behind me, and hit my head on the shelf, then fell on the ground. However, he didn't know that my sister and my dad were outside, already calling the police because the roommate we had was threatening them. Well, now I'm fine physically, but I'm in the worst of shape emotionally. I can be happy one moment, and then, out of nowhere, burst into tears, and I jump whenever the phone rings, because they just stopped leaving harassing messages on the answering machine.
On top of that, my dad pressured me into seeing a doctor, and then he paid for it, and expects me to pay him back. I wanted to enjoy my time between schooling without having to work, but now I have to get a job, because all my savings is gone, and I pawned everything I owned for bills and food. I don't even know if I can handle a job right now.
Plus, I only have one friend left, because she was the only person who didn't believe his ***, which was that I had hurt myself on purpose to make him look bad. And even still, I can't stand to hang out with her. Because I can't even stand to leave the house anymore, except a few times with my family.
Anyway, I just needed to talk about it. I hope this helps me get to sleep. And, to anyone who actually read all this, thanks.
Watch your language.
WingedZephyr