Take it from somebody who has spent their fair amount of time in "counselling", it isn't worth the time.
It's an endless exchange of vague, meandering ideas which (apparently) you are supposed to try to create some conceptual synthesis of; As you can imagine, it is rarely more than an hour of two people reaffirming their own diluted belief that they are emotionally attuned to those around them, and thereby (here's where it gets funny) intelligent, caring human beings.
Psychology is by name a "soft-science", don't rely on it to solve anything. Chances are, it will be a waste of your time, and if by chance it DOES help, given psychology's track record I can virtually guarantee you it will be little more than a temporary high brought on by the false impression that a veritable stranger (you are paying to care about you) actually cares about you.
I find this rather negative and insulting. I want to be a counselor after university because I do care and understand a lot, being through a lot myself-- but perhaps you refer to people who just take the course and then
think they understand people. However, having an attitude like that isn't going to make Rigor feel any better or have a positive outlook or have a feeling she has choices to make it better for herself. Its unfortunate counseling for you didn't work out, but it juts depends on the person and the counselor- it doesn't work for everybody but she should give it a try.
I had counseling for 2 years for my depression and she really did give a hoot about what I was saying- she inspired me to want to be a counselor, and because she went through some of the things I did she could help me out. I am a much happier person for it and she pretty much saved my life because I listened to her and was able to have my say on what was going through my mind without being judged.
I imagine that you had anxiety attacks and things like that when you told your teacher probably because you never really talked to anyone before- and suddenly acknowledging your problems and hearing them out loud gave you a major shock. You should know thats normal and thats the first step to recovery! I'm proud of you Rigor and I want to support you all the way, you just have to put one foot in front of the other at times like this! Don't be discouraged because the first step was difficult- just see it as a challenge and you can do it.