I've seen people post things like this, but.. I really need some help with this. I usually never dream because I don't much sleep, but when I do sleep, I have these really horribly vivid dreams. They're scary because they are so real.. I can feel every sensation and they are more real than anything I've felt recently. I'm not sure what on earth they could mean, but I figure I'll share because maybe it will result in something beneficial. I'm not sure. I need my mind put at ease.
This is from a journal I posted last month..
"For an extensive amount of time, I've been having troubling dreams. I've had them for so long now, I don't know how long I've had them, but I'd guesstimate it's been somewhere between eight months to a year. Whenever I can and do dream.. It's about my teeth, and I can never understand it. At all. The dreams are frightening. More like nightmares, but one of those intriguing ones that holds your morbid interest. I feel scared during the dreams, and at one point in time my teeth get ripped out. Now, when I say ripped out, I mean ripped out as violently as possible. My mouth is always bloody, and my teeth are gone. They almost always smashed into pieces and I spit them out or pieces of them out. There's a vivid pain that'll shoot through me until the adrenaline makes it go numb. If I don't spit them out, I find them, bloodied in my hands or pockets with the roots broken off as if someone broke them out of my mouth and the roots are still there. I never know how they get ripped out, but it always feels so real.. I can taste the blood. When I wake, I still have that metallic taste in my mouth, and sometimes I'll still think my teeth are gone until I'm fully awake. Anyone got any ideas on what any of this could mean?
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Now, to expand a bit on this, the roots are usually still in my mouth. And when I describe these things, it may seem vague, but I can feel everything down to the pulse in my sockets from the pain of the removal of the teeth. They DO NOT FALL OUT. They are specifically battered or removed by something or someone else.
Now, this month, it's as if my mind may be fixated on something else.. I wrote this journal out a moment ago:
"So, I still keep having these vividly violent dreams. Last night and earlier today was more strange because this time it didn't have the teeth thing going on. Instead, it was half of my face being gone. Like.. The skin was gone, and it looked as if it had been eaten off from my nose and under my eyes down. It was painful, so painful.. And so real. Real to the point that I could feel the air stinging my bare muscles because there was no skin to protect them, I could feel that warm, wet feeling when I reached up to touch where the skin was gone and the pain the followed from touching it. I kept asking people for help, and no one would listen, no matter what I did.. It was so hopeless, I began to cry, which hurt more because of the salty tears. I couldn't even figure out who did it. I had literally woken up in the dream on the street with just a pillow. I figured out my face was gone when my pillow was stuck to my face. When I pulled it off, it hurt so badly, and there was clotted and wet blood on the pillow, which told me I'd been laying there for a while.
I can't remember what else went on, I just remember the pain and no one listening to me. I also remember that eventually in the end, I had a flash back or something and I saw myself with a knife slicing the layers of skin away like my face was a potato or something and I was supposed to "peel" it. I wish I didn't have such horrifyingly painful dreams. It wouldn't be so bad if they weren't so real. They always wake me with a start."
Anyone want to take a crack on any advice as far as what they could mean.. Or how to get them to stop? I'd really like to sleep.
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