the question is, am I dealing with it well?
I mean, the feelings you'd expect are all there, and yet I'm acting like i'm the greatest thing in the world and can take on anything.
How I feel is that I'm freefalling. Because she was my security. How is my life gonna turn out now? Frankly I dont know what's gonna happen and there's nothing to indicate that it will turn out well.
I'm also angry that it had to happen, and so I take out my anger in Saints Row.
All I can do is ride the wave, and if in two weeks, I'm more messed up than ever, then obviously boasting and dancing has not worked.
it worries me because I've been through some horrible stuff, and I know that there is worse out there, so what's gonna happen to me, I dont know.
This all may sound hideously selfish, but my ex (never had to say that before) is gonna be fine, she's on the up because of this. It's good for her, and I'm happy for her.
I'm not happy when looking at my own predicament.
There's more to it than I'm saying but generally my points all fit the situation.