I like him, I really do, but I must be the biggest jerk in the world cus I think he's pathetic. he's 19 years old, he's old enough to navigate atleast the basic problems in life.
He winges on and on about how his mother is nagging him as if he's a child, and somehow he thinks that's something unusual and that parents should naturally be perfect. Most parents treat their kids like children. I met his mother, she seems like a mother. just... a normal mother who constantly nags and reminds you to make sure absolutely everything is ok. That's how they are!
I accidentally took his shampoo instead of mine (they look stupidly similar), I say sorry and offer it back to him. He says no. A few days later, he talks about it again, I offer it back again, he says no. Then he steals it back, in secret. This is an adult human being.
For some reason, he thought our student house would be rather lovely and wonderful. So he was incredibly surprised that it turns out to be a bit nasty. it's a student house! It's not buckingham palace.
He wants to leave this house in search of a better one (despite the fact that its problems have been FIXED) simply because he wants to spite the estate agent... seriously! you dont have to be best mates with them. At most they're a business associate. They give you a house, you give them money. Simple as.
He also wants to leave and live in a big heavily populated house with his girlfriend who he barely likes. If he does that, we wont be able to stay in the house we have, unless he gives us time to get someone new, but he wont give us that because he's indecisive. He doesnt even like heavily populated places. Anything about 2-3 people and he freaks out. He's being selfish and stupid and he doesnt understand how messed up such a decision is.
When we get in a discussion and I show that actually I'm more intelligent on that particular matter than he is then he just tries to shout me down.
And the most recent one, the whole house makes messed up jokes. Proper messed up jokes that are totally insensitive and should never be spoken of in polite conversation. Both him and my other housemate have been making jokes all week about my girlfriend becoming my ex-girlfriend by realising she's a lesbian. Some of them are down right mean, but I accept them as jokes I can see how a lot of them are actually quite funny, even if I hate them being said. Yet I make one joke about autism, and he shuts down, closes his laptop and walks off.
Yes, he's autistic.
I've met autistic people before, they're generally not as... sensitive or pathetic. He's more fragile than a flower in drought.
Or am I wrong and I'm just generally being a horrible horrible person.
I mean, generally i think almost all men I meet are pathetic. "Just grow a pair you stupid child," is what I think most of the time.
But, it's like, my other housemate and I are supposed to tip toe around him, while he stomps around having a tantrum. Well I dont care one bit about his emo-boy lifestyle. He can act like the world's all against him and his life is a twisted joke of what he thinks is the norm; the norm apparently being surrounded by unicorns and griffins all day.
It's like he just either wants someone to pat his head and say
"there there baby, it's not your fault that that the world is conspiring to make your life a living hell. Now I'll just put you in this biiiig ball of cotton wool, and everything will be better."
or
"Yeah man, you have a much worse life than any of us. I recognise your suffering and bow to your pain. You are truly the martyr of our time."
And I do understand that it's just depression and I myself suffered from it from atleast the age of 4 if not earlier, but most people atleast have some flippin' dignity about it. They dont parade it around as some kind of emblem. He has a t-shirt that says "I have issues." He smears his own blood all over the walls and likes to tell people about it so that people think he's a psycho, when really he has a teddy with a red bow tie in his room. He likes to cuddle it. He wants people to think he's some kind of tortured soul, trapped in a world of blades and angst. All I see is a guy who cant or doesnt want to grow up and realise that most people go through what he goes through. Maybe he's just scared of what'll happen if he lets go of the only thing that he defines himself by.
Yeah, I'm just a bad person, but hey it's not like I care...
but then I wrote a huge post about it just now, so maybe I do. Maybe I can be redeemed...
yeah right
So what do the various fauna of this fine land think?
Am I abusing a mentally disabled person?